I fully realize that this is really messed up. Tomorrow morning, my husband and I are heading off to Newfoundland, the only part of Canada we have never visited (it is all about those yummy ads). Now, I love to travel and see new places. I have only heard wonderful things about the rugged beauty of Newfoundland. Anywhere that can say “Its about as far from Disney Land as you can possibly get” sounds great to me.
So what’s the problem?
Well, I just want to stay home and write and putter and write and putter. I understand the importance of maintaining a balance while going to grad school. Is it really unbalanced to want to stay home? (BTW – I know the answer to this, that’s why I’m going on a vacation).
In my defense, I work full time as a high school teacher, and I am doing this degree full time as well. So I see this as my one opportunity to just be a student and write and putter and write and putter. Of course, friends have said that if I go on a vacation I will come back refreshed and invigorated. But what if I come back stressed out about the lost opportunity to write and putter and write and putter? Pathetic, no?
I have a family member who was a university professor. We watched him, and kind of judged him because all he did was work. The entire family had to insist that he take a weekend off once ever summer to go to his daughter’s cottage for one night. The only way he would go was if we promised that he could leave after lunch on the Sunday. 29 hours away from his work was the max. Here’s the thing – now I get it.
So is it ok if I bring my computer, encourage my husband to bring some books and go for long runs (fitness is important, right?) and hope for rainy days, not sunny days? Cause that’s my plan.
Writing this, I feel like a real slug. I read writing a blog had the potential to be therapeutic. Right now, all I can hope for is self awareness. Whoa. Wait a minute – it is going to be great to get away and see the rugged splendor of Gros Morne, the Viking trail and L’Anse aux Meadows, and eat at awesome restaurants in St. John’s. OK, its all good – I’m ready to go and have a great vacation. Blogging IS therapeutic, and it is going to be great. Really! Now I’m excited. Have to go and pack.
And don’t forget, success as a grad student means keeping things balanced. It’s the key. As well as the ability to laugh at yourself.
Happy trails, to all. Have a great summer, whether you are writing and reading, or enjoying family, or discovering new places to go. Cheers, and all the best.